I Fell Again

I fell again and darkness surrounds me,
Sin’s scars strengthen me, calcified wounds some reopened,
ensnaring me, separating me from my Lord,
I’d pray for forgiveness with the understanding of what I’ve done,
and still I feel a deep remorse of solemnness as my heart aches for the lashes that Jesus took for my failures,
sadness instills in my heart the loneliness that Jesus felt when separated from his Father.
I know if I ask him to forgive me, He will forgive and forget about my sin,
but maybe I need to suffer a little and wallow with my sorrow within.

The separation is too agonizing as my Spirit wanes.
I need my closeness with God, I need back in the Light.
I know there will be many times where I’ll fall again,
hopefully not so painful as I feel inside.
I pray the Lord keeps me humble, not boastful and full of pride.
As I walk the narrow path to Him, with open arms, trembling hands
and a prayerful heart with his Love inside me.

What can you say?

What can you say to someone who so patiently waited for you, who always loved you and rescued you from death? A mere thank you is never enough. In my case the Lord waited years. I became a Christian in my 20’s and although the Lord was in my life, I wasn’t in his until my 60’s.

You know the Lord loves us all, Christian and non-Christian alike. He’s also patiently waiting for You. You may have heard it said that He loves the sinner, but not the sin. We’re all sinners, all of us. Sin came into our lives with Adam and Eve. Once that door opened, it has never been closed. The only way we can get rid our sin is to repent, to be cleansed with the blood of Jesus. The Holy Spirit helps us, guides us, as Christians we strive to be better than we can on our own. You receive the Holy Spirit when you repent of your sin and believe that Jesus was Sacrificed for our Sins. He is the Door from Sin to Eternal Life. Only through Him can we be Spiritually cleansed and be given Life ever-after.

Repent of your Sins. It is time, before it is too late. Feel the Joy of having God in your Life. If you have never been with the Lord or once were, it’s time. Our life quickly slips away. We need Him. Pray for forgiveness of your sins and Believe.

John 3:16 – For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

Romans 6:23 – For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.

1 John 1:9 – If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

…glad it hasn’t happened to us

I was watching a show about Mindy Tran. Mindy, eight years old, was kidnapped and killed in the early 90’s. They found her brutalized body in a shallow grave next to a tree in some woods a few blocks from her home, a few years later. They had a suspect and a trial, but the jury let him go. Not enough evidence. Of course, the family was devastated during the loss of their daughter. This happened in Kelowna, BC two hours North of where we lived.

I was thinking during that time, how devastating to her family, friends and even the public at large as we were following the story on the news. The show I watched recently, brought most of the memory of Mindy Tran back. As the saying goes, “time heals all wounds”, well maybe not all wounds, but most. There have been many missing kids throughout the world. Some found, some found years later alive and still some are never found.

Know this, that the ones that did these nasty things to our children, never get away with it. There time will come and they’ll be judged and feel God’s wrath. Matthew 18:6 But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea. 

Don’t fall into a false sense of security. Be watchful and be involved with your children’s lives. There are some very sick people in this world. It could be a family member, a neighbour, a scout leader and even a teacher that could be acting inappropriately with your child. I know of an incident where a child was being sexually abused from a teacher, but the parents didn’t find out until years later. The teacher had been more involved with the child than his parents. The child was told not to say anything, or his family would be killed. He was too scared to say anything and they just in their room and didn’t interact with anyone, even friends. They also started acting out, getting angry at small things, because they were coping with a deep, dark hidden secret. It was just excused that he was a teenager being a teenager.

Don’t look at the world “threw Rose coloured glasses” … Satan is into everything, our electronics, our churches, our sports, anywhere that he can keep us distracted and away from God, he will. Keep your children close, know what they’re interested in and talk to them. Watch for abnormal signs in your children, changes and keep them informed. Things have changed a lot since I was a kid, but even so, bad things were happening back then, we just didn’t hear about it. Pray for help and understanding.

What is our Focus?

As Christians, what is our focus in our walk? Do we go out and try and recruit new members to our church? Has the church become your God? Do you attend church to show others that you are a Christian and live a Christian life?

When I first decided to attend the last church I joined, I called the pastor and asked about their hours. He was very polite and asked my name and said he would greet me. I was single at the time, so it was just me attending. I was a “Christian” already, but was looking for a different church, as the church I originally attended when I became a Christian was in a different city and a different denomination. Upon attending that day, the Pastor invited me to a church picnic. It was a beautiful day; it was the first time I had apple pizza. I found everyone easy to speak to, of course they all introduced themselves and I am terrible with names, so only remembered a few. During the time I was attending, I was invited by church members out to lunch about every Sabbath. I later became Baptised and joined the church and the invitations seemed to drop off. I was being schmoozed by the membership as that was the focus. It did not matter to me so much as I was not really a social butterfly, but it might to others. The same thing seems to happen to new members at other churches. It was the same when I first became a Christian. Churches hold all kinds of functions to increase their memberships, whether it is dinners for Thanksgiving or Christmas, bazaars, and some churches even have Bingo. There are a few churches that have their focus set in the right direction, on God, but for many, membership is their focus.

The reason I am writing this is not to admonish the many churches for this behaviour, but to ask that they change their focus. When bringing people into their churches to focus on God. Jesus ministered to the needs of the people that came to him in the crowds. If you change your focus to the people that come to rather than your needs, the Lord will bless you. It is a simple thing to do. As a church family, pray, “Lord guide us on how we can meet the needs of the community and surrounding areas.” The Lord will lead you and bless you as a church.

As individuals, we should also pray, “Lord guide us so we can we meet the needs of our neighbours.”

1 Corinthians Chapter 13:4-5 – Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,

5 Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;

Romans 12:21 – Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good.

Hebrews Chapter 12:1-2 – Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,

2 Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.

Romans 12:2 – And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

Proverbs 16:3 – Commit thy works unto the LORD, and thy thoughts shall be established.

Luke 10:27 – And he answering said, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy strength, and with all thy mind; and thy neighbour as thyself.

I’m a Good Person

I’m a good person. I don’t break any laws; I pay all my taxes and give money to charity’s. I treat my family well, don’t cheat on my wife, heck I barely look at other women. I don’t lie or cheat others; I work hard and do my fair share. I go to church when I can, usually for weddings or special events, but I occasionally do go. I’m better than most people I know, about equal to others. God willing, I’ll likely be in heaven when I die.

To be honest, to go to heaven doesn’t just take a “good person”. It takes someone who believes. God wants a relationship with you. If you want to know what God wants of you, open a Bible and turn to John 3:16. ( see below) God doesn’t want you to rely on your “self”, he wants you to rely on him. Which means communication with him on a regular basis. What most people don’t realize is if you don’t choose God, you have chosen Satan. There are only two choices. You may think you are a good person, but there’s Sin in your life and the only thing Sin does is separate you from God. You need to repent of all your sins and the only one that can forgive you is Jesus. As he carried all our sins to the cross. He died for our sins. Your repentance for your sin can only be cleansed through Jesus Christ. And then, when you die, you’ll be welcomed into Heaven. Heaven isn’t a reward for “a good person”, it’s a place for forgiven believers that have a relationship with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit (our comforter).

When you repent of your sins and become a believer you gain eternal life. If you chose to not follow God, you’ll gain eternal damnation in the Lake of Fire. It may sound harsh for a “good person” and even for a not-so-good, but you need God to keep you from the wiles of Satan and his minions. There will come a time in your life where you’re tested, and the lure of Satan will be irresistible to you. It may have happened already. It might be subtle…a little lie here, “it won’t hurt anything, just this once”, a little sin there, and the next thing you know he’s gotcha. Ah, it’ll go away… nobody’s the wiser. Satan, once he has you, won’t forget, in fact he’ll remind you. He’s very tricky that way. Sin will bring darkness to your thoughts and dreams. Satan knows all about Sin, he was thrown out of Heaven because of it. He started with Pride and then he wanted to be equal to God. He wanted Power. What would you do to get that job that’s got way better pay and benefits? Would you throw someone “under a bus” to get it. One of your friends or fellow workers? Oh look, a wallet on the ground, would you pocket some or all of the cash before throwing it away or turning it in? Oh, look at that “hot chick”, if only I wasn’t married. Man was I drunk last night; I can’t remember driving home… mm the keys are here in my pocket. How many of these sins might fit into your life? I could list many more, but I won’t, you get the idea. We all have done stupid things in our lives, even me. Sin eats at you as stress does. Living with it without getting rid of it can affect you the health of both your mind and body. The difference is how do you rectify these sins and bring some light into the darkness that sin brings or maybe just let it slide and continue to believe when your dead your dead or you believe you’re a “Good Person”.

John 3:16

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”

Matthew 5:28

“But I say unto you, That whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart.”

Romans 14:21

“It is good neither to eat flesh, nor to drink wine, nor any thing whereby thy brother stumbleth, or is offended, or is made weak.”

Galatians Chapter 5

19 Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness,

20 Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies,

21 Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God.

1 Peter 5:8

“Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:”

1 John Chapter 1

8 If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us.

9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

10 If we say that we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.

God Found me and brought me Home

I was blind, deaf and lost as darkness befell me, I prayed and God’s Love, the light of his glory found thee.

He found me wandering, stumbling and worried about life, He sent angels to surround me, protect me from my strife.

Depression engulfed me, like an unfolding curtain of death, when I prayed to God, he answered and gave me a reason to take a breath.

Through Grace I have been saved, with the blood of Jesus my spirit cleansed. Ripped from Satan’s grip, I was whisked away, no longer imprisoned.

As I was God’s child originally and to him, I give my Love and tribute, pulled from the Sin of Satan and his corruption he distributes.

Nowadays Love has many meanings on this earth, as it’s been sanitized, corrupted, disheartened and such, but God’s Love is forever as he is Love and he Love’s you so much.

So, life can be hard, can be short, can be sad, but I’d like to give you advice, bring God in your life and he will take all your burdens and protect you from vice.

Choose wisely and consider the time you have left, before the choice is made for you, as you’re in the Grave, bereft.

HATE

Hate is a word that is used quite a lot in today’s society. By definition it means, “intense hostility and aversion usually deriving from fear, anger, or sense of injury. – Merriam-Webster Dictionary”. It can fester inside of you and grow. Did you know that Satan uses that hatred? He’ll tell you that you’re right to hate that person, that person wronged you and you need to tell the world about them. By doing so that hate will spread and in turn others you care for feel hatred towards that person. That’s Satan job to get us to Sin, yes hatred is a Sin. It breaks the sixth Commandment, thou shalt not murder. 1 John 3:15 – “Whosoever hateth his brother is a murderer: and ye know that no murderer hath eternal life abiding in him.”

Instead, God asks us to Love our enemies, if someone has wronged you to forgive them, because the only way God will forgive you is if you forgive others.
Matthew 6:15 – “But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.”
1 John 2:11 – “But he that hateth his brother is in darkness, and walketh in darkness, and knoweth not whither he goeth, because that darkness hath blinded his eyes.”
Matthew Chapter 5 – 43 Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy. 44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; 45 That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.

Pray and ask the Holy Spirit to help you forgive those that have wronged you and forgive them. If you’re the one that’s hated ask forgiveness from them that hate you and pray that they will forgive you. Their eternal life hangs in the balance. Certainly, don’t hate them back, as then your eternal life also is at risk. This is the perfect scenario for Satan to get his grips into both of you. John Chapter 13 – 34 A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. 35 By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another.

Most of us have been affected by Hate in our lives. It can be family members, neighbours, fellow workers absolutely anyone. Don’t fall into Satan’s trap and let it fester. Pray for help.

Matthew 5:44

“But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;”

1 John 2:9

“He that saith he is in the light, and hateth his brother, is in darkness even until now.”

1 John 4:20

“If a man say, I love God, and hateth his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, how can he love God whom he hath not seen?”

Dual Citizenship

Everybody in the world has at least a dual Citizenship. One for your body and one for your Spirit.

If not chosen, then the choice is made for you. As I’ve said before, there’s no such person as an atheist. They may believe they are, but in reality, if they don’t choose heaven the choice is already made. This world has a king (Satan), and he wants all the followers he can get, so he’ll manipulate you into believing you don’t have to choose. That you can believe in nothing, that your body dies and that’s it. It feeds the worms. You may feel you’re a good person, you don’t lie cheat or steal and that’s good, but it won’t get you in heaven. We all will be judged. To get to heaven you need a personal relationship with God. You need to believe that God sacrificed his son and that if you believe in him, you will have everlasting life. Jesus was sinless, but he took our sins to the cross. His life was sacrificed for us. You see the only way to be saved from Hell is to believe. We have all these distractions in life, getting the perfect house, car or great job, but we discount the really important thing, your eternal life. Can you imagine that this life on earth is just a small sample of the life we actually have? What if you die in the next hour, day, week or month, are you ready? Can you honestly say you have never sinned? Have you ever told a lie or hated someone, then you have sinned and that’s just a couple of them? Have you spent time reflecting on what happens when you die? So, what if you’ve been wrong all your life, that there is a God? That would mean you’re God’s child and all this time when you’ve had to make those hard decisions about family, money or life in general, you didn’t have to do it alone. Those times you feel alone, depressed or distraught know you don’t have to feel unloved or unwanted. God is watching and waiting for you to accept his love. It’s a free gift. He loves us just as we are, he just doesn’t love the sin. Ask forgiveness of your sins… it’s a simple thing. The Holy Spirit will help you, guide you, comfort you. You see that when Jesus ascended to Heaven he sent a comforter, the Holy Spirit. Lift the burden of sin off your life and great changes will happen when you give your life to God.

You see we do have at least Dual Citizenship. I’m a citizen of Heaven and Canada. My spirit belongs to Heaven and my body belongs to Canada. What country does your body have a citizenship in or better yet, where does your Spirit belong? With God or Satan?

John 3:16

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”

John 14:6

“Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.”

Ephesians 2:8-9

8 For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:

9 Not of works, lest any man should boast.

Acts 16:30-32

30 And brought them out, and said, Sirs, what must I do to be saved?

31 And they said, Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved, and thy house.

32 And they spake unto him the word of the Lord, and to all that were in his house.

Romans 6:14

“For sin shall not have dominion over you: for ye are not under the law, but under grace.”

We Won!!!

How many of us wish we can win the lottery? Not so much with the little prizes, but the big ones… the millions of dollars. We dream of buying a new house, car(s), going on a trip. I’ve been there. I still buy the occasion ticket, which is something I need to work on in my life.

Most often I buy a ticket, whether it be a scratch ticket or even a lottery ticket I end up losing. Sometimes, through rarely I get a winner. “I won, I won, I just won $5.00”, on my $5.00 ticket… Yahoo! Somehow that shouldn’t seem like winning, though. So, what do I do? I buy another ticket or perhaps more tickets, after all I just won $5.00. lol It becomes a cycle.

So, what am I personally going to do? For one thing I’m going to break the cycle. Not buy a ticket just because the jackpot is huge or just because it’s available at the register, I’m at. The reason, well the Lord pointed something out to me. If I spend this money on lottery, what budget am I going to break. Where is the money coming from or where would it be better spent? Plus, what good is a mansion or wealth here, on this planet if it means I lose my soul. If all my needs are met, do I still need the Lord? My answer is always yes, but what is your answer? What do you want out of life? Do you want someone in your life that truly Loves you, that takes care of you needs or do you want the greed and corruption that comes from not needing anything or anyone? I know what Satan would pick for yours and my life, if he could, if he had a choice. Don’t give him that choice.

Track how much you spend on lottery, I’ll do the same. Add it up at the end of the month, subtract your winnings. Is it a reasonable amount to spend when you could have paid a little more of your debt load off, bought a gift for your spouse or child or bought a meal for someone that needs it?

I used to own a convenience store that sold lottery tickets and there were people in everyday spending money. Money they may have delegated for lottery in their budget (I hope), but some of those people could not afford it. You could tell or they mentioned they were on fixed income. Sometimes they bought scratch tickets $50 at a time, scratched them all and came back and did it again or I would see them at other stores doing the same thing there. I have no idea how much they spent or made in a day. For them, there is programs for their gambling addiction, actually sponsored by the lottery themselves in Canada. I’m not sure of elsewhere. They keep looking for the big win. Sometimes they get a fairly big win and then they invest it again in lottery to win bigger. Where is this going to lead… homelessness, no food for your children or yourself, no power this month because you can’t afford to pay the bill?

Most people, including myself, have to reach the bottom before they reach out to the Lord. You don’t have to. Don’t wait, “life is too short”. Before you know it half your lifetime is over or worse yet, you die too young. God has been watching you all your life, he loves his children, even if you are not a believer. What separates you from God is your sin. God is waiting to bring you into the fold, he gave us free-will.

John 3:16

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”

It’s our choice to believe or not. Really there is no middle of the road with this choice. If you don’t choose God, then you’ve chosen the king of this earth (Satan). Satan wants us to be too busy in our lives on this earth to think about happens when we die. The dream to live well on this earth will lead you towards destruction. “Satan has a plan for you.”

If I buy another lottery ticket for myself, I’m going to ask, “do I really want to win what this world has to offer and miss out in heaven”? If asked by my wife to buy a ticket for her, well of course I will. Everyone chooses, but I hope and pray your choice is to stop and think, “what are we buying into”, not just lottery, but other choices we make in our life?

1 Timothy 6:10

“For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.”

Matthew Chapter 6

19 Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal:

20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:

21 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

Matthew 6:24

“No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon.”

Matthew 6:33

“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”